I Am Back!


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Ha! So you thought I had abandoned the blog (well, to be honest, I kind of did). However, I am back, with several things to say.

Firstly, my excuse: College. Yep. I will be attending UCSD this Fall, and getting prepped for it has been craaaazy. Seriously, the amount of things you have to do to get into college is through the roof. I’ve been stuck by needles three times now with a fourth poke coming all for the sake of higher education.

Furthermore, my mom is out of the house in Singapore, so I have to help house-keep, and that is no easy task mind you. And also, I needed to recover after finals. I have been sick for around three weeks now and it is just now getting better, I think.

All that aside, I am glad to be back and writing, and I do need to update you guys on several things (so this is June’s reflection post).

Firstly, I will get back to posting Eternity on Fridays. Once again, all the crazy stuff threw me for a loop, and so I had to put a hold on that, but it will be happening once again! As for the other story that I hinted at before completely disappearing, that idea has evolved and birthed a new, and better idea that I am working on currently.

Also, I want to link my blog back up to my Twitter account. I used to post on my Twitter account whenever I posted on here, but I stopped after a while because I got lazy. Not anymore! Anybody interested can now find me on Twitter where I hope to post more regular updates on what I’m doing and how things are going.

For some personal updates, yes, I am attending the University of California San Diego this Fall, where I will be studying Mathematics-Computer Science in Sixth college. I plan to live on campus and I plan to work (hopefully) for the first time. I’m very excited about that. However, that will not be happening until August.

In more recent news, my girlfriend Anna will be coming to visit in two days. She’ll be staying for a couple of weeks, and I am very excited about that. So expect to see posts talking about that both here and on Twitter.

I think that’s pretty much all I have to say. I’ve got some projects that I’m working on currently, but those will have to stay a secret until they are in a more solid state. I hope to update you guys on them soon. I’d really like to make this blog more than it has been in the past.

Alright, that’s it for now.

Tours yruly

Wednesday Wonderings


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So, because this Monday Meditations post is so late, I decided to re-title it. Hah. But, I do have excuses which I’m sure will keep me out of trouble for being so late to post it. =P

Last Friday, I flew out of California somewhere around 11:00 AM, I think? I cannot recall anymore. Ah well. It was my first time flying alone, which felt remarkably less exciting than it should have (maybe because I’ve flown so much in my life). I landed in Illinois where my girlfriend picked me up from the airport and took me to her house.

What was I doing in Illinois you ask, over some random weekend? Well, I was attending a wedding. Not mine, of course, but her sister’s wedding. In fact, from Friday to Sunday I experienced a lot of firsts. My first American wedding, my first big event without my parents, my first time helping to set up and take down a wedding, my first Nigerian food (the groom is from Nigeria), my first long train ride alone (that came before all the other “firsts.” I took the train to the airport), the list goes on.

Needless to say, it was a very exciting and exhausting weekend, and when I arrived home on Sunday at around 9:30 California time (11:30 Illinois time, which I had pretty much switched over to), I celebrated my mum’s birthday, because yes, the 12th is her birthday. That was certainly a fun night.

I pretty much spent the entirety of Monday recuperating before I went to school from 4:00 to 9:00, PM mind you. Thus I did not write this post on that day. Monday is probably the weakest point in my excuse, but hey, I’m not a robot. I do need my rest.

Unfortunately, what prevented me from writing yesterday was a lot less cheerful than what happened over the weekend. Yesterday, my girlfriend’s cat started throwing up. The poor thing threw up four or five times before being taken to the vet. There, they found that something was blocking its intestines, they suspected cloth or something else that it had eaten. It was going to need surgery.

Now, I kid you not when I said the situation was dire. Depending on the extent of the damage, because the intestine was starting to become constricted, the surgery cost was going to range from 1,600 to 3,000 dollars. Beyond that, at best the surgery had a 70% chance of success, and at its worst, it had a below 50% chance.

Needless to say, a lot of prayer happened yesterday and last night. Anna (my girlfriend for those of you who don’t already know) and I stayed up late into the night waiting for word about how the surgery was going. By God’s grace the surgery went well, and they did not have to go the complicated route. The cat is now back at home and she has survived, but she will need to recover.

So that was my exciting weekend which prevented me from writing. I suppose it’s not necessarily the best excuse you may have heard, but I certainly think it’s legitimate. And in excusing myself, I also did cover what happened in the previous week, which certainly fills out the journal portion of these posts. As for the meditation wondering part?

Well, let’s say that I wonder what I should be wondering about. Fair? Okay.

Tours yruly 

Memoirs


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Hello everybody! Firstly, sorry for not getting this post out yesterday. I ran late with homework, and then was too tired to write, but I’m back today with yesterday’s post, and below I’ve transcribed something I wrote in English class yesterday. It was an in-class exercise where we were given several lines and just asked to write, and this is what I came up with. It’s made up off of some ideas I have running around in the back of my head, but that’s all I’m going to say for now. 

I couldn’t stay to take care of him. Duty called me forward. All our memories together, all the time we had spent side-by-side, training, I pushed it all away. I had to. Because I knew that if I didn’t, I would stay frozen, unable to move, caught in a decision I knew one day I would have to make.

For days I forced him to keep moving. We couldn’t stop. Death came from behind us, and nothing lay before us. He did not want to continue. He complained about his wound, but I knew. I knew he wanted me to carry on without him, that he was worried about slowing me down. I chose not to heed him.

They passed eyes at each other, knowing we were brothers. Our reputation preceded us. But oh how striking the difference now. Men who had seen death never were the same, but my brother’s eyes were not those of a man who had seen death. No. They were those of a man who had seen something so terrible that nothing else could exist. Nobody knew what had happened to him after I left him. Not even he.

He swore that he hated me, that he could never trust me again. I expected it. He couldn’t even recall our best times together, let alone our worst. I didn’t want him to recall. He had been through enough already. Why tell him of the tragic moment when he forced me to abandon him?

“I was at their mercy,” he said today. Before I could ask him what he meant, officers showed up and took him away. They claimed that because he remembered, they had to debrief him. They do not understand. My brother is a broken man.

That’s it. The first lines in each of those paragraphs were extracted from a poem we went over in class. It was a very interesting poem to say the least: 911, by Gil Cuadros. It contains some graphic language, which is just a forewarning in case you decide to go read it. Not exactly my style, but hey, it’s English class, what can you expect?

Tours yruly

Exercise


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Everybody wants to be fit and healthy. I think that is something that we can all agree on. I also know something else that we can all agree on: being fit and healthy is not easy. I’ve made a personal commitment to try to maintain an active life, since I know that my habits (sitting in front of a computer for hours a day) lend to a sedentary one. Unfortunately, it has been very difficult to keep to it. There are just so many excuses that I can use to push off exercising.

That’s what I did for this entire past week. Rather than exercise, I decided that I would enjoy playing games, writing, and watching videos more. However, today I made the push, got my lazy body out of my chair and worked out for an hour straight. And after doing that, I came to a number of practical realizations that I’d like to share with you guys.

1. Exercise Sucks, but the Glow Afterwards is Amazing

Now, I don’t know if you guys reading this are fitness fanatics, or if you are more on my end of the spectrum. Regardless, if you do not know this already, it is something that can make exercising quite addicting. When you work out, and I mean really work out (you can tell you’ve worked out if no one will approach within ten feet of you afterwards), it stinks. It’s hard, your muscles complain, and you think of all the other more enjoyable things you could be doing.

But when you’re done, you actually feel really good. In a strange sense, you feel stronger and better than before, even though you’ve just made every single muscle in your body cry for mercy. Now, I’m sure there is some scientific explanation for this, such as the releasing of harmful substances through sweating, and endorphin rushes and such, but I won’t bore you guys with the biology, because what really matters is this: exercise is energizing.

This means doing it as early in the day as possible is best. It’ll have you feeling pumped for the rest of the day, not only physically, but psychologically, because you’ll know that you’ve met your goal for physical activity, and that is very satisfying. I’m sure it’s actually quite fair to say that more exercise = more productivity.

2. Partners Help

Some people like to exercise with other people, and that’s fine. Other’s prefer to gun it alone, and that’s also fine. But having a support group, or at least another person, who you can share progress with is unbelievably helpful. Not only do you receive encouragement when you reach new goals, but you also get the benefit of encouraging others.

Of course, it’s easy to see how someone could fall into the trap of comparisons, but really that is not the goal. The idea is progression, as a group, and self-improvement. That is what makes exercise so great. I’ve been partnering up with my Dad in these endeavors, and the results have been excellent. In fact, on days that I don’t feel like exercising, just know that he’s already done his exercise adds a little more incentive for me to go do it myself.

So, my recommendation is if you’re also looking to shift from a sedentary to an active lifestyle, find someone (or someones) you can do it with. You won’t regret it.

3. Be Reasonable, Have Confidence

Now, the reason I’ve juxtaposed these two is because they are so equally crucial, and too much of one will mean failure. With every goal and every achievement, your target should always be reasonable. If you’ve never lifted weights in your life, trying for the fifty pound dumbbells from the get go probably isn’t smart. Or if you haven’t ran since middle school, expecting to survive a ten mile jog is insanity.

However, you need to ensure that reason does not hamper you. Just because you have not done something before, doesn’t mean you cannot do it. Don’t let doubt and uncertainty hold you back. Very often, our bodies can achieve more than we thought was possible. So tackle each new challenge with relish. Up the bar, and know mentally that you will be able to reach that goal.

And if you don’t reach your goals, ignore it. And I mean ignore it. Don’t even dwell on it. Just set the same goal next time, and when you finally achieve it, you will have built up a firmer foundation to achieve greater heights.

That brings me to the conclusion of this piece. I believe that among its many benefits, exercise also lends to self-confidence. Knowing that you have the self-discipline, mental strength, and physical fortitude to accomplish whatever it is that you have accomplished will add to your confidence and push you to better things, regardless of what aspect of life is in question.

So, what are you waiting for? Go exercise.

Tours yruly

Visits!


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Hello everybody. As you can see from my lack of energy, I’m rather exhausted, so I’ll make tonight’s post quick. This past week has been finals week. I’m finished with it now. How’d it go? I think it went well, but to be honest, I’m just glad they’re over with.

Not only did the end of finals mark the end of school for me, but my girlfriend has also been over to visit. She arrived yesterday, and today was the first full day we got to spend together. 🙂 For those of you who don’t know, I’m in a long distance relationship, meaning we’re dating, but we live far enough apart that we can’t exactly visit each other whenever we feel like it. She had to fly over.

However, she’s over for Christmas, and of the three years we’ve known each other, this will be the first Christmas we’ve spent together, so we’re both quite excited about that. We also have a lot of things planned, just because time tends to go by quickly if you’re not making sure to do the things you want to do.

Speaking of which, sleep is currently something I want to do quite a bit. Like I said (did I say it?), it’s been a long day, and I could really use the zzz’s. But, realy quick, before I go do that, I’d like to talk briefly about Christmas.

I’m not going to say much in the way of how you guys should spend your Christmas, or what my opinions on how it should be celebrated and whatnot are. What I will say is that Christmas is really a time for thanksgiving, and not just all about the gifts. So whatever you’re up to, why not spend a little time just being thankful? It could be a simple “thank you” to a family member, or you could write up a card to someone you know. Either way, I think it would be great if we all put aside some time to be thankful this Christmas.

Good night everyone.

Tours yruly

The wind! The wind!
What?
It comes from the North.

The Tree and the Rock


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A wise man’s tale:

I wake up in an open plain, looking at the sky. When I stand I see a tree to the East and a rock to the West. The tree grows and grows, but the rock does not change. People come, and cut off some of the tree’s branches. More people come, and chip away part of the rock’s surface. As I watch, the tree continues to grow, but the rock does not. Once again, people come, and cut off some of the tree, and chip away part of the rock. The tree grows. The rock does not.

Then, from the north, I hear a terrible sound. Loud, and oppressive, it is the sound of a quickly moving fire, urged on by a strong wind. I watch as flames envelop the tree and the rock. I lie down to escape the heat. When I stand, I see a stump to the East and a rock to the West. The tree does not grow, and the rock does not change. People come, and they carry off the last of the rock.

Tell me, which fared better? The tree, or the rock?


Alright! That was an excerpt from a dialogue that happens in Eternity. Hopefully you guys found it interesting in interpretation. I’ll let you guys try and decipher what it means now, but it actually has quite a bit of context in the story.

Today is Tangent Tuesday! That is, I get to write whatever I want, pretty much, and it’s not constrained to any particular thing. However, I just wanted to talk about the crazy things that have been happening. For the past few days, our heater has stopped working, so, as you can imagine, the house has been freezing. It’s even hard to type. =P

Beyond that, I lost power to my room on Sunday and it was only fixed on Monday, so that was pretty wacky as well. I also was nearly unable to register for my classes over the weekend because the school servers were down for me and up for other people. Fortunately I managed to get in though, so that was alright.

Anyway, my question for you guys is, has anything weird, unusual, or crazy happened to you guys as we lead up to finals? If so, I’d be very interested to hear about them. =P

I think that’s gonna be it for this post. I don’t know how much longer my fingers can type in this cold, and I have to save some of it for school. =P

Tours yruly

…it is coming. See to the necessary preparations.