I Am Back!


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Ha! So you thought I had abandoned the blog (well, to be honest, I kind of did). However, I am back, with several things to say.

Firstly, my excuse: College. Yep. I will be attending UCSD this Fall, and getting prepped for it has been craaaazy. Seriously, the amount of things you have to do to get into college is through the roof. I’ve been stuck by needles three times now with a fourth poke coming all for the sake of higher education.

Furthermore, my mom is out of the house in Singapore, so I have to help house-keep, and that is no easy task mind you. And also, I needed to recover after finals. I have been sick for around three weeks now and it is just now getting better, I think.

All that aside, I am glad to be back and writing, and I do need to update you guys on several things (so this is June’s reflection post).

Firstly, I will get back to posting Eternity on Fridays. Once again, all the crazy stuff threw me for a loop, and so I had to put a hold on that, but it will be happening once again! As for the other story that I hinted at before completely disappearing, that idea has evolved and birthed a new, and better idea that I am working on currently.

Also, I want to link my blog back up to my Twitter account. I used to post on my Twitter account whenever I posted on here, but I stopped after a while because I got lazy. Not anymore! Anybody interested can now find me on Twitter where I hope to post more regular updates on what I’m doing and how things are going.

For some personal updates, yes, I am attending the University of California San Diego this Fall, where I will be studying Mathematics-Computer Science in Sixth college. I plan to live on campus and I plan to work (hopefully) for the first time. I’m very excited about that. However, that will not be happening until August.

In more recent news, my girlfriend Anna will be coming to visit in two days. She’ll be staying for a couple of weeks, and I am very excited about that. So expect to see posts talking about that both here and on Twitter.

I think that’s pretty much all I have to say. I’ve got some projects that I’m working on currently, but those will have to stay a secret until they are in a more solid state. I hope to update you guys on them soon. I’d really like to make this blog more than it has been in the past.

Alright, that’s it for now.

Tours yruly

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200 Words Challenge


200!

Alright, so I’m not sure if you guys are aware of it, but I haven’t been writing as much as I used to. In a way, this is a good thing, because for a long time, I was very depressed and writing served as an escape. Since then I’ve grown much better and I don’t need this form of escape anymore, so that’s great. However, I still want to continue writing, since it was such a valuable part of my life and I do enjoy creating stories.

But, since there isn’t as much of a need for me to write any more, it has become easier and easier to be distracted by all the other things I love to do. For those of you who don’t know, I’m a polymath, and do a whole ton of things, from music, to gaming, to programming, to video making, to painting, etc. As you can imagine, add that to school and life, and you result in the equation of not enough time.

So I’ve decided to make it a challenge for myself. My goal is to write at the very least, 200 words a day, and if you guys saw the counter on the top right of my blog, that’s what this is all about. A few rules I’m going to set for myself are that these words are not allowed to be written for anything but my own personal enjoyment. That means writing for school doesn’t count.

Now, I know like this might seem like a modest goal, but I know myself, and I know my tendencies, especially when it comes to regularity. So that is why I’ll go with 200. If I write more, then hey, that’s great, and you’ll see it in the counter. If not, then at least I’m still writing. That’s the gist of it anyway.

I figured that I’d do an announcement of this for two reasons. Firstly, now that I’ve announced it to everybody on my blog, you guys can all keep me accountable. Secondly, if any of you are also finding this to be a problem, which I’m guessing it’s not for most of you, then you can also give it a shot.

That’s all I had to say on this. Let’s give it a go.

Tours yruly

Hi


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So… Where do I start… How about that amazing award that I totally did not throw together in five minutes? Yep. Believe it or not, I am back. In what might consider the most hectic time during the school semester (finals) I have returned.

Honestly, I have no idea how many of you out there even remember me or my blog, but if you do, I’m very glad that you’re still around. Now, the purpose of this post isn’t for me to once again apologize for being a terrible blogger, and then retreat back into my hidey hole never to post again.

Instead, I’m writing this post because I wanted to talk. I don’t really know who I’m talking to per se, because like I said, most of you are probably gone, but for those who are here, I’d like to have a conversation.

You see, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking – a dangerous pastime, as many of you would know. And I’ve decided that I wanted to raise the bar for what I produce. This is in no small manner inspired by Brandon Sanderson and his series The Stormlight Archive, an excellent series which I’m working my way through. The depth and detail with which he writes has floored me, and really inspired me to work harder at what I create.

Why am I telling you guys this? Well, it’s because the format of this blog is going to change slightly. I understand that in the past I used to have a “featured novel” which I would post chapters for as I wrote them, and that would be the main attraction on my blog. Well, I’m going to keep the “featured novel” part. But instead of posting chapters, I’ll post teasers and updates, journal posts to let you guys know where I’m at, and how our goals are doing.

I know this sounds very weird, and possibly kind of boring, but stick with me. I will post other stuff on occasion, because posting the same kind of thing can be quite mundane, but the reason I think this will work is because when I do reach my goal, then I’ll be able to release a chapter of the story every week, in a regular, episodic type fashion. And it will also have that level of quality I was aiming for, because I was able to go back when I needed to and change details in previous chapters.

Now, what story am I going to do this for? Well, it’s for a new novel I’m writing with the tentative working title of Eternity. I know it feels like I’ve been starting a lot of writing projects and not finishing them, and to tell the truth, I have. So I apologize to anyone who was really enjoying those. Believe me, the spirit of those stories will be carried on in Eternity, but unfortunately, the story lines will not.

After saying all that, I would like to get to the main point of this post, which was not about the new blog format as you guys might have thought. I said originally that I wanted to talk, and I do. I really would like to nurture a dialogue here on this blog. I enjoy having conversations with people, especially so with you guys, because I feel like I know you, even though I’ve never actually met you.

I would really like to start bringing life to the comments section. Just drop a few words on anything. It doesn’t even really have to be related to the post. You could talk about how you’re doing, or what you’re currently working on. You could even complain about school and how burdensome it is. Anything.

I don’t know if this will work, because 90% of it depends on you guys and how willing you are to actually talk with me, but if you are, I think we’ll really bring the spirit back into this blog. Now, I said 90%, so I’ll cover the 10% by starting the conversation.

Life’s been pretty tough for me of late. All my friends moved away this year because of college, so I’ve been left in the dump pretty much, and therefore have felt pretty lonely. Fortunately, I’ve made a couple of friends in school, so that’s not too bad. College itself hasn’t felt all that much different from high school to be honest. Except for the fact that I’m taking 21 credit hours of classes, which is always fun.

I’ve also applied for a tutoring position at my college, and I just took a test for it today. We’ll see how that turns out, because the last time I took this test, I thought I did great, but actually bombed it. I’ve also started drawing/painting on occasion. Here are some of my works:

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Of course, there’s more I could talk about, but I want to ensure first that I don’t feel like I’m talking to a wall, so I’m gonna hang around and wait for someone to reply. If no one ever does, then hey I might or might not continue recording my experiences here on this blog. If they do though, then I will have succeeded.

I have also been taking a philosophy class, so don’t be weirded out if I abruptly post something that seems philosophical.

Anyway, that’s all for now. I’ll catch you guys tomorrow. Or today, as it were.

Tours yruly

Mansion (Cutting-the-red-ribbon Post!)


This might not um totally be like a spoiler *cough* post for a maybe new series I could possibly might do on this blog. The title of it is like uh totally hidden in y’know *cough* look up.

**Accessing Secret Writer’s Database**

Loaded.
**Hacking into Personal Note Files**

Loaded.
**Retrieving Preliminary Data on Mansion**

Loaded.
**Displaying Floor Plans*

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I had NO idea wordpress could do that!! ^^^ O.O

Talking about it hacking into my computer of course. What, you thought I was talking about the slideshow? Pffft. I totally knew that.

Tours yruly

Hey Guys


So, your most inconsistent blogger ever is back. I don’t know how long it’s been since I last posted anything, and I don’t really want to check because then I might get even more depressed. But this post is here for a couple of things. First I’m going to tell you why I was gone. Then I’m going to tell you what I’ll do about it. And finally I’ll talk about what happened to Cheridith Chronicles.

Anyway, the truth of why I’ve been away so long is that I have been very, very depressed. I won’t go into all the details as to why, but suffice to say, a lot happened over the summer, and not all of it was good, so that when I came to tackle my obscene course load this school year, I did subpar. This sent me further down the spiral of depression, to the point where I no longer really felt like writing, so that when I did, the stuff I produced was garbage, and I hated it.

In fact, that has been the main reason that has prevented me from posting my writing. I’ve just been really hating my writing. I went down a path of extreme self-criticism, and my writing took a huge blow as a result. I basically lost all confidence in it, and I’ll admit I’m still feeling pretty shaky. Because of the intense glaring eye that I pointed at my work, present and past, I started to even dread the thought of writing, let alone posting on this blog.

But I’m back. Why?

Because I’ve decided not to care anymore.

I’m not going to worry about whether I think you guys will hate what I write. I’m just going to do my best and write, like I’ve always done, throw on a below-perfect layer of editing, and post it. I think that’s what made this blogging experience so rewarding for me. The freedom that came with just being able to pen my thoughts out on paper and put them up there for you guys to read was nonpareil, and I’d like that again. So that’s what I’m going to do. Good, bad, beautiful, ugly, it’s all coming up here, and you guys can do whatever you want with it.

As for following all the blogs I used to follow, I simply don’t have the physical capacity or energy that I used to have. School has really drained me, and what with the depression I’ve been struggling with, it’s awfully hard for me to sit here and just let loose. It’s so very tempting to let the ever-present thought of school creep back in and ruin how I feel. So I’ll try to read around and comment and like, but no promises. And I know it sounds like I just threw a whole bunch of excuses in your face, and maybe I did. Sorry.

As for what happened to Cheridith Chronicles, a couple of things happened to it. Number one, I decided that I didn’t have time for the original idea. Then I didn’t have the confidence to turn it into an actual novel. So then I turned it into a super-secret movie script that I only just recently shared with my girlfriend. I’m at the point in the scriptwriting that I can’t really turn it back into a novel, but if you guys are interested in reading it, I could try posting the script up here as I progress on it.

I also want to try to revive and finish the two novels that I sort of had going in the background but never completed: Storyteller and Right Behind You, but we’ll see how that turns out. That’s all there really is from me guys. I might post something after this, just to push this depressing post further down in my feed, but we’ll see.

I guess here’s where I say I’m back?

Tours yruly

P.s. I also cannot stand how WordPress brought back the default uncategorized category. Grrr….